Bethany Renee Fallon

A Letter to our Beautiful Daughter,
Bethany Renee Fallon…… Taken Too Soon……

Our little miracle girl, right to the end. Four years in the making, through many heartbreaks and
tears we fought for you. Three cycles of IVF, 2 surgeries and then finally the news we had craved
to hear for so long, your Mummy was pregnant and we were going to have you. Today this remains up
there as one of the happiest days of our lives, along with 31 March, the day you were born and we
were finally able to meet you and hold you. But we weren’t supposed to meet you yet. Not yet.
Not this soon. The past 20 weeks have been the happiest of our lives. From day 1 we have loved
you, cherished you, talked to you, sung to you, planned for you. Our lives have revolved around
you. It wasn’t supposed to end this way, not this soon, and we will forever wonder why, but maybe
it was just because you loved us so much that you had to meet us, that you couldn’t wait! Maybe
you could sense or see the beautiful nursery we had set up for you. The colours, the toys, the soft
blankets and teddies, the hand picked words that were written in clouds above your cot and above
your window. Those words will always remain in my mind and in our hearts.

Hush little baby mummy and daddy are near
To brush your hair and calm your fears
To kiss your cheek and hold your hand
‘Til you drift off to sleepy land
To help you count those little white sheep
And sing you songs ‘til you’re asleep
To tell you tales of kings and queens
Of Jack and Jill and wonderful things
So snuggle up and hold me tight
And dream sweet dreams all through the night
And every night when the sun goes down
You’ll still be the sweetest little baby in town……

I’m so sorry Bethany, I’m so sorry I could not be there for you when you needed me most. A
father is supposed to protect his little daughter…. But as much as I willed all to be ok and hoped
for a miracle, I was helpless……

At 19 weeks you were happily swimming around inside your Mummy, waving those arms and kicking those
long legs. You weren’t to know what was about to happen. You didn’t deserve it. The doctors
gave you little chance but you fought on for 4 days. You weren’t ready to give up and neither
were we. Right up until the end your heartbeat remained strong. Just an hour before your birth we
were privileged to listen to you and it was like you wanted us to know one last time that you were
there and fighting. At 19 weeks and 4 days you had no right to survive birth but once again you
amazed us. Expected to survive for 5 minutes you stayed with us for an hour 15. Long enough for
you to wrap your hand around my little finger, twitch as I tickled your tiny foot and long enough
for you to feel your Mummy’s heartbeat as she held you to her chest. We watched in amazement as
your heart continued to beat. I know you didn’t want to leave us. You fought right to the end
and so too did your Mummy. She is the bravest person I know and you take after her in so many ways.
You may have my long fingers and toes and look like me but you have her heart and fight and we are
so proud you chose us as your parents, even for such a short period of time.

We are told you are in a better place now, but it’s hard to imagine a better place than hear with
us? For 4 years we have been ready for you and we were ready to give you the world. We still will
but now in our own little way. There are so many people in our lives that will miss you too.
Grandparents, aunts, uncles, cousins, friends…..

The future is going to be tough without you here with us and right now we might not see a way
through it, but we do not stand here today sad for ourselves but sad that as hard as you fought, you
never had a chance. You wanted to live, you fought to live and we fought so hard for you too, but
on this occasion the fight was just too big. We will always treasure the time that you did share
with us. Take comfort Bethany that your Mummy and Daddy will always be here for you and through the
miracle of you, you have brought us even closer together as a family, for we are a family!

Rest in Peace beautiful angel
We will never forget you……. xoxoxoxox